Coronavirus Reminding Me of Some Things That are True

In this precariousness I feel deeply a part of the ancient human family.  And am reminded of some ancient human truths.

The Nature of Things

Each moment & thing is impermanent, not-self, unsatisfactory…. and is free & quiescent.

Impermanent – Each thing, inner and outer, is not just someday gone, but always-going.  The gross impermanence of this body ending, the subtle impermanence of this ungraspable flow.

Not Self – Where can I go that’s protected? Where can I go that’s cut off? One thread woven as a single web.

Unsatisfactory – No thing, inner or outer, will ever finally satisfy me. Stop grasping at things.

Free & Quiescent – Each thing, inner and outer, is in itself just this stillness, just this vastness.  Just this freedom from all ways of seeing it.  The drone note, steady and constant: nirvana.


Including Death Is Medicine

Turning towards death is turning towards life.

“I inform you, great king, I announce to you, great king: aging and death are rolling in on you. When aging and death are rolling in on you, great king, what should be done?”

“As aging and death are rolling in on me, lord, what else should be done but Dhamma-conduct, right conduct, skillful deeds, meritorious deeds?”

Like a mountain, the messenger says, coming from the east and west, the north and south, as high as the clouds, crushing all living beings in its path.

Just do whatever you think should be done,” the messenger says.

What else should be done but to practice the truth?


Now Would Be Good

There is no better time, has never been a better time, to practice the great way.

Generosity – Is there a gift to give right now?

Disciplined CareWhen washing the hands with water / may we with all beings / have pure clean hands / to receive and hold Buddha’s teaching.

Utter Acceptance – The mountains close in. Now who can say there is any danger in utter acceptance? It’s ok.

Wholehearted Enthusiasm – It’s ok… and there is something to do.  Is this full self-expression? Is interdependence wholeheartedly, unreservedly enacted?

Continuous Concentration – On the narrow path through precipitous cliffs, riding a mountain goat – when the stakes are high we just naturally attend.

Wisdom Beyond Wisdom – Life itself. Utter mystery, utterly open.


My feeling

“Zen is, in one word, to share our feeling with people, with trees and with mountains wherever we are. That is Zen practice.”

Suzuki Roshi, March 1970 

These are some of my feelings that I wanted to share with you, about things that are true.  Please know that I am practicing sharing them too with the mountains and trees, the walls and the tiles… and am listening for what they share with me.

What do you feel?

Subete Yoshi – Farewell Harada Tangen Roshi, 1924-2018

I just learned from a dear Dharma friend that our great teacher Harada Tangen Roshi, of Bukkokuji Temple in Obama-shi, Fukui-ken, has passed away at the age of 93.

Goodbye, Roshi-sama.

There are no words to express my gratitude for your teaching.  For the opportunity to have sat, worked, eaten, chanted, bowed, begged, and slept in your presence.  To have received your teaching through body and mind.  Wagamama though I was and continue to be, your teaching and presence still ring through my being.

With one hand, fire.  The hara, the shout.  If you set out to accomplish it, you will accomplish it.  If you do not set out to accomplish it, you will not accomplish it.

And with the other hand, water.  The smile, the easy laugh.  Subete yoshi.  “It’s all good.”

May I hear, everyday, every wagamama moment, you ringing me out of your room.

And may everyday, every moment, I return to your room again and touch my forehead to the floor:  My name is Jiryu.  My practice is shikantaza.

Thank you, Roshi-sama.

We have the expression, ichi tantei (‘one doing’). NOW. NOW. This is ichi tantei. A teacher is one who clearly reveals this to the student. “Reality is not off someplace else, away from right now and here. NOW. HERE. Don’t be careless. Don’t be off guard.” The teacher points out the path, the direct route, in the way most appropriate to each student. With this direction, the student can truly practice the most treasured, straight path.

“Namu Butsu”, Jiryu jukai, 6/20/2002

My favorite Roshi-sama calligraphy, the snail climbing Mt. Fuji

One of my many fond recollections of Roshi-sama, from Two Shores of Zen and offered with appreciation in his memory.

Precisely at 10:15 am Roshi-sama starts down the stairs from his room, with Daiko-san attending close behind him, swishing through the hallway towards the hondo in the ornate vestments I think of as his “Sunday robes.” Taking the cue, Ankai-san scurries up the ladder and starts pounding the drum, slowly at first, then gradually building speed. He hits hard and loud, with martial ferocity, but the sound is flat, lacks the fullness that sometimes reverberates through the taiko.

“Dame!”, no good!, Roshi-sama shouts furiously as he nears the drum, breaking into a run out of the solemn procession of two and waving his arms at Ankai-san, who stops and climbs meekly down from the ladder. Ripping the drumsticks from Ankai-san’s hands, Roshi-sama scrambles up the wobbly ladder himself, his floor-length robes tangling around his legs and his elderly body heaving for breath. The assembly seated below watches anxiously, and Daiko-san rocks nervously at the bottom of the ladder, poised to catch his frail teacher as he falls.

High up in the drum alcove, Roshi-sama strikes the drum once. It sounds flat, at least as dull as Ankai-san’s. From my place on the tatami floor, I look up at Roshi-sama and feel a little embarrassed for him. I hope he wasn’t trying to make a point about the drum. He’s an old man, I remind myself, and just because he’s enlightened doesn’t mean he has the strength to hit a drum.

Unfazed, Roshi-sama hits the drum a second time. The clear sound shakes the sliding wooden doors, reverberating through the weave of the cool tatami. Good hit, old man, I think.

He strikes a third time. An explosive, expansive boom fills the temple, not so much shaking things as settling, silencing them. The sound blankets my mind with its clarity and weight, snapping me into a new, immense consciousness. My whole field of awareness smoothes out, crystallizes, and fills to overflowing with the vastness of my being.

Roshi-sama, now himself a stillness that flows through the stillness of a hall that is no longer any other than my body, descends from the alcove. He crosses his legs under his robes at his seat, rests a moment—complete unmoving—in his place, and then addresses the assembled monks and laypeople.

“I hit the drum three times just now. The first time I hit it like Ankai-san had. Ankai-san, your hits were no good! Your arm was extended, your body was bent, you were off balance. The way you were standing, it was impossible to hit the drum well.

“The second time, I hit it correctly. There are ways to do things. When you do things in certain ways, it is easier to become one with them. When your body is close to the drum, you can hit it with ease. When an action comes from your hara—when you hold the drumstick with your hara—the result is always excellent. We must learn this in our practice, to fully use the hara in everything we do. That is the way I hit the drum the second time: I hit it correctly, the way it should be done.

“The third time—did you hear the third hit?—the third time I just became one with the drum. The drum, the old teacher, no separation.”

I am in awe of him, absorbed in his sweet spell.

Don’t Win the Argument, Rouse the Conscience

I’m continuing to think about right speech, and the welfare of sentient beings, and our politics, and our online ecosystem, and the Buddha Way.

I think often of a favorite teaching of my ordination teacher, Seido deBarros.  It’s from Dogen Zenji’s Shobogenzo Zuimonki.  I put the full text at the end of this post, but Seido’s paraphrase captures it:

“Never win an argument.”

What if this were our motto for online speech?  What if this were our motto for social engagement?  What if this were our motto for Dharma discussions?

“Never win an argument.”

I’ve been listening to sermons of Dr. King recently as I continue my study of the civil rights movement, and I’m struck by the absence of an emphasis on “winning the argument” and by the presence instead of the idea of “rousing the conscience.”  I don’t say “winning the argument” is not an element—maybe it is, but it’s certainly not the frame.

The frame is: a nonviolent appeal to conscience.

The frame is: words and actions intended to rouse the conscience of the nation.

This is more simple, more direct, and more straightforward than winning arguments.  It is making suffering and oppression plain and public, and by doing so reaching in to touch the listeners’ compassionate nature.  This touching must come anyway whether or not the argument is won, because even if we win some argument, in the absence of that touching—that rousing of conscience—there’s just another argument behind it.  So why not dispense with the argument winning and just move directly to the conscience rousing?

Appealing to conscience feels to me much more vital, energized, alive, and awake than winning arguments.  It feels much closer to right speech, right action.  Like nonviolence itself, it has no relation to forfeiture or collapse.  It is not complacency.  It is active, courageous, engaged.  It is, and requires, the practice of the Buddhadharma—contacting our deep nature and allowing that nature to contact others’ natures.

So I don’t need to win you over on this, and that’s not my intention.  But to those who feel this call resonate in their own conscience, please let’s consider taking up this practice together.  Not to win arguments, but to rouse conscience.  To rouse the conscience of those who “agree,” that we all step up and let this awakened conscience truly guide our every day.  And to rouse the conscience of those who “disagree,” that they may be touched in their conscience and not just convinced in their minds.

And through this practice especially may we rouse our own conscience, our own innate compassion and Way-Seeking Mind, and entrust to that roused conscience all of our actions, moment after moment, of body, speech, and mind.

Shobogenzo Zuimonki 5-7, translation by Shohaku Okumura

Dogen instructed,

There is an old saying which goes, “Although the power of a wise man exceeds that of an ox, he does not fight with the ox.” Now, students, even if you think that your wisdom and knowledge is superior to others, you should not be fond of arguing with them. Moreover, you should not abuse others with violent words, or glare at others angrily.

Despite having been given great wealth and receiving the favors of some person, people in this age would definitely have negative feelings if the donor were to display anger and slander them with harsh words.

Once, Zen Master Shinjo Kokubun told his students, “In former times, I practiced together with Seppo. Once Seppo was discussing the dharma loudly with another student in the monk’s dormitory. Eventually, they began to argue using harsh words, and in the end, wound up quarreling with each other. After the argument was over, Seppo said to me, ‘You and I are close friends practicing together with one mind. Our friendship is not shallow. Why didn’t you help me when I was arguing with that man?’ At the time, I could do nothing but feel small folding my hands and bowing my head.

Later, Seppo became an eminent master, and I too, am now an abbot. What I thought at the time was that Seppo’s discussion of the dharma was ultimately meaningless. Needless to say, quarreling was wrong. Since I thought it was useless to fight, I kept silent.”

Students of the Way, you also should consider this thoroughly. As long as you aspire to make diligent effort in learning the Way, you must be begrudging with your time. When do you have time to argue with others? Ultimately, it brings about no benefit to you or to others. This is so even in the case of arguing about the dharma, much more about worldly affairs. Even though the power of a wise man is stronger than that of an ox, he does not fight with the ox.

Even if you think that you understand the dharma more deeply than others, do not argue, criticize, or try to defeat them.

If there is a sincere student who asks you about the dharma, you should not begrudge telling him about it. You should explain it to him. However, even in such a case, before responding wait until you have been asked three times. Neither speaks too much nor talks about meaningless matters.

After reading these words of Shinjo, I thought that I myself had this fault, and that he was admonishing me. I have subsequently never argued about the dharma with others.

Just to Mend a Hateful Heart

Some friends here at SF Zen Center recently asked me to share my thoughts on right speech for a series we have been doing on the theme.  Specifically, they wanted some comments from me about right speech on social media.

I’m sorry, I thought.  There is no such thing.  Right speech is impossible on social media – I have nothing to say on the matter.

And that’s why I’ve been away from No Zen in the West, from facebook.  Busy, sure.  Committed to my in-the-flesh Sanghas, sure, and the whole swirl of so-called “actual life.”  But also and maybe mostly because I came to feel that right speech online is impossible, and wrong speech online is excruciating.

Right here on this blog and at least as much on the uncountable facebook posts attached to it, I have seen how impossible and excruciating it is.  I have seen, in myself and in the community, how the vitriol spews and cycles and pollutes and is reborn – exuberant proliferation of hatred, violence, one-upmanship, competition, division.  Missing one another, and missing again, and missing again, an entire vitriol-based ecosystem emerges… a whole vitriol-based world system.

Thus behold the utter frailty of right speech online! It is like a flash of lightning in the night sky, overtaken in an instant.  We await then the next flash of kind speech, of understanding, of curiosity, of compassion, but we know even before it comes that it won’t last when it does – night will seal up right behind it as quickly as it came.

So, no – sorry, I thought.  I have nothing to say about right speech online.  I’ve never done it, and I think it’s impossible.

But my friends kindly persisted, so I had to reconsider.  Is my view really so dark, so defeatist?

If I am resigned to hate and fear being the main thing going on in my heart and our hearts, all the time and forever, then yes, right speech is impossible, or pointless, or both.  If I see right speech as just policing of others expression or sugar-coating my own pain, suppressing the hate and fear in my heart and turning away from the hate and fear and suffering in others’ hearts, then yes, fuck that right speech.

But there are other ways to see right speech, and other ways to deploy it.  Speech is a mirror, and right speech is a path.  So I found it in me to write this for Zen Center, and with this spirit, and this intention, I take one vulnerable, tentative step back into the storm and the night:

Lately I haven’t felt at all like my goal in getting my speech “right” is to achieve “right speech.”  I respect the karma of words, but I’m honestly not working on my speech for speech’s sake.  I’m way more worried about my heart.  I’m trying to get my speech right so that I can try to get my heart right, that’s all.  I’ve awakened rudely to the fact that my speech is a window, a mirror, to my heart.  Through my hateful speech, I see my heart full of hate.  Trying to mend my hateful speech, I’m trying mostly just to mend my hateful heart.

Reading Hakuin in the Age of Trump

I don’t know about you, but I’m a sucker for big hardcover Dharma books, especially ones that have the word “complete” in the title. Complete? Who can resist? So when I saw that Norman Waddell’s translation of Hakuin Zenji’s Complete Poison Blossoms from a Thicket of Thorn had come out last month, I ordered it. Hakuin’s great, I thought. Maybe I’ll leaf through.

Right around the same time, I was really interested to read a wonderful series of posts over at Dosho Port’s blog. Dosho’s on a Hakuin kick these days—I recommend looking at all of them. (Start with this one, then here, herehere and here)

So I ordered the book, and read Dosho’s posts, and remembered how great Hakuin is, and I started to read. And what I’ve been struck by is less anything doctrinal or any particular Dharma points in Hakuin’s writings, at least so far (Dosho has some interesting things to say about Hakuin doctrinally, especially in contrast to Dogen)—instead, what’s been powerful for me is more the tone, or the style, or the stance. The feeling of Hakuin. I’ve been really drawn to it, reading a lot—I went back and re-read his autobiography, and looked again at his letters, and I’m joyfully tearing through Complete Poison Blossoms.

It’s taken a few weeks, though, to realize why it is that Hakuin is speaking to me so deeply and directly, why he seems like such good and inspiring Dharma medicine for my practice right now. And the reason, of course, is our time—this cultural/political/historical moment, with Donald Trump in the White House and my whole wounded culture boiling up all around me. Hakuin’s decades-long religious crisis marched right through the emotional extremes of terror and anguish and despair. He was a dramatic and wounded guy, and he practiced within and through the exact states of mind that I feel in myself and in my culture right now. He’s the Zen master of desperation and anxiety and dread, and in a cultural moment so marked by those emotions, he’s just right.

For a set of slightly convoluted reasons, I’ve found myself taking cold showers these days. It all started with trying to drink less coffee (those of you who know me know how much coffee I drink.) It turns out—according to the Internet, at least—that caffeine works on dopamine receptors in the brain and so one of the ways to lessen the impact of caffeine withdrawal is to look for other ways of getting a dopamine boost. And one easy, cheap dopamine boost comes from taking cold showers.

So I’ve been giving it a try, and it’s worked—I’m drinking less coffee, and they really are energizing, the slap of them, the shock.

All of which is just to say: that’s just what reading Hakuin is like. Forceful, direct, enlivening. Like an icy blast of water.


Changing the subject: some of you know that I published a book of fiction—my first!—last fall. Here’s a link to an interview I gave about the book (namedropping Dogen and the Avatamsaka Sutra). You can order the book from Amazon, of course, or directly from the publisher. If you’re curious, I hope you’ll take a look. It’ll generate lifetimes of merit, I promise.


A Zen Priest Ordination / Una Ordenación como Sacerdote Zen

If you heard some celestial celebrations on November 19, 2017, it was likely the Bodhisattvas of the cosmos rejoicing at the leaving home priest ordination of Sanriki Juan Felipe Jaramillo  at Hakuan Zendo, Montaña de Silencio, in Medellín, Colombia.

Si escuchó celebraciones celestiales el 19 de noviembre, 2017, seguro que fueron los Bodhisattvas de los cosmos regocijandose al ver dejar el hogar, el shukke tokudo, ordenación como sacerdote Zen, de Sanriki Juan Felipe Jaramillo en el Zendo Hakuan, Montaña de Silencio, en Medellín, Colombia.

I performed the ordination with the support of Central Abbess Eijun Cutts and others at the San Francisco Zen Center, following Sanriki’s completion of a practice period at Tassajara and his thirty-plus years of Zen practice prior.  The Reverend Densho Quintero, Dharma heir of Shohaku Okumura and head teacher of the Comunidad Soto Zen de Colombia assisted in the ceremony, and much of the Montaña de Silencio Sangha was in attendance.

Celebré la ceremonia con el apoyo de la abadesa Eijun Cutts, con quién Sanriki cumplió un periodo de práctica en Tassajara, y otros maestros del San Francisco Zen Center, todos conscientes de que Sanriki lleva más que trienta años practicando la Vía del Zen.  El Venerable Densho Quintero, heredero en el Dharma de Shohaku Okumura y maestro de la Comunidad Soto Zen de Colombia ayudó con la ceremonia, y estaban presentes muchos de los practicantes de la Sangha Montaña de Silencio.

I am overjoyed to be able to share this news with you, and to make this public announcement of Sanriki’s priest ordination in the lineage of Shunryu Suzuki Roshi.  May his practice continue to bring benefit to living beings, and may all beings continue to support and sustain him in his sincere practice.

Me da mucha alegría poder compartir esta noticia con ustedes, y anunciar públicamente la ordenación de Sanriki como sacerdote en el linaje de Shunryu Suzuki Roshi.  Que su práctica siga beneficiando a los demás, y que todos los seres sigan apoyándole y sosteniéndole en su sincera práctica.


Kosan, Sanriki, Jiryu, Densho

Este último cabello se llama shura…

Sanriki recibiendo el linaje


Announcing Online Course: Encountering the Teachings

We don’t use No Zen in the West much to plug events, but as our email subscriptions have grown I realize that there are many of you who aren’t in my other circles of contact.

So if you haven’t already, please consider if this online course I’m offering would be a good fit for you.  I’ve had a good time preparing it, and I’m looking forward to its launch next week!

The class is called “Encountering the Teachings,” and it is a romp through the major doctrinal streams of Buddhist doctrine, as classified by early Chinese Buddhists – karma, no self/abhidharma, emptiness/madhyamaka, mind-only/yogacara, and Buddha nature/tathagatagarbha.  My intention has been to include enough reflection and perspective to give some grist for experienced students “re-encountering” the teachings, but not to be so technical that newer folks will be lost.   Especially alive for me as I prepare the course has been the “contemplations” videos, which I put together on each of the five areas of teaching that we are covering.  I hope that these contemplations can help us really feel and appreciate and enter the worldview of each teaching.

As I’ve appreciated before when offering these programs, the online platform is 100% flexible, and people can participate or not participate to whatever extent they’d like and with whatever pieces they are most interested in.

Anyway, check it out if you are interested!